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The final entry of my sabbatical adventure away from the Church entitled: "Church No More."

Almost three months ago I (an ordained minster who has gone to church my whole life) walked away from church– for three months. It is what I've decided to do with my sabbatical. You can read about my initial thoughts on
 my blog or on The Huffington Post. As the journey unfolds, I will be blogging about it in this series entitled, “Church No More.” I hope you will not only follow along, but add your voice to the reflection by commenting or joining the discussion on my FB page.

They say you can never go home again. The thinking being, having left and experienced new things, you have changed and the people back home have continued in their lives just as you left them. Your experience of going back home again will necessarily be very different from your experience of home as you remember it, even though it may have changed very little.

In many ways, Church is one of my homes and I left it. I walked away for three months and experienced a bit of life outside of it. The three months are up and I'm going back home. This Sunday (September 2) is my first Sunday back.

The saying “you can't go home again,” probably originated from Thomas Wolfe's novel, “You Can't Go Home Again.” It's the story of an author who leaves his home, writes about it from a distance and then tries to go home again. It doesn't exactly go well. The folks in the town are none-too-happy about him airing their dirty laundry so publicly. So, you can't go home again.

Well, I'm going to try. Yes, I left the Church and wrote about it from a distance and judging from some of the comments and emails I received, some folks are none-too-happy about some of the things I said, but it's time to go back to the Church.

The good news for me is I'm primarily going back to church (little “c,” as in the church where I serve) and then secondarily to Church (big “C,” the institution). I love the folks at Vandalia Presbyterian Church. We're a small church with a big heart. I'm looking forward to seeing them all again and to doing ministry with them again. Here's the thing: I've changed. That worries me a bit.

Luke records Jesus as saying, “...no prophet is welcome in his hometown.” While I'm no prophet, one of the things prophets do is tell people where they are falling short of what God wants from them and challenge them to fix it. I suspect that is part of what Jesus might have meant in saying a prophet isn't welcome in their hometown. “Isn't that little Jesus over there? Joseph's boy? And he's trying to tell us what we need to be doing better? Ha! That's rich!”

While I'm no prophet, I have changed and I do see the Church a little differently than I did three months ago. When I go back to Church again, I'm probably going to be talking a little bit about the places I see us falling short of being the Church, the people, God calls us to be and it is likely I'm going to challenge us to fix it. Here's to hoping Jesus and Wolfe got it wrong.

Another challenge I'll face is: when I get there, even though I've changed, I immediately rejoin the ranks of the insiders. Probably the most beneficial piece of my sabbatical away from Church was the input of Spiritual But Not Religious (SBNR) folk who wrote me about their experience. Being that I'll be back in my “insider” role, I need that kind of constant input while I am busy going back to Church again. With readers spread all across America and as far away as Christchurch, New Zealand, it'd be a bit difficult to have you all come back to church with me (assuming that some are even willing) and help the wonderful folks at my church and me revision what church should be, but I sure would like to do just that.

Let's make sure one thing is clear, I'm not trying to “save” the SBNR – quite the contrary. I simply want to help the Church save itself. The Church should understand itself as the body of Christ. Currently, the body is incomplete. We have elevated structure, dogma and “the way it's always been done” to places of their own little godships and in doing so have ignored the one thing Jesus taught us actually mattered – each other.

We need the help of the SBNR. They complete us. So, I offer this open invitation to the SBNR folks who are actually looking for a spiritual community. Come help us. We need you.

In the end, I can only speak for the church where I serve, but my hope is that if some of us, the insiders of the Church and SBNR folk, can get together and re-imagine the way forward together, we might inspire others to do the same.

At the end of this sabbatical journey, I realize the journey has just started. Experiencing, seeing and understanding some of the things I did on my sabbatical away from Church is not enough. Now is the time to take action upon it. I invite you along for the journey. I'll begin by starting a new blog series entitled, “Back To Church Again.” It will follow my journey back and my efforts to re-imagine church based on what I learned on this sabbatical. I hope you'll not only read along, but will join in the conversation by adding comments on the post and by sharing on The God Article's Facebook page. There's much work to be done... and we need each other to do it.

And so, the journey continues.

 
 


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Margherite Williams
08/29/2012 17:21

I've been on sabbatical from church (member of a congregation), but not from services (anonymous pew-warming "visitor") for about 9 months. During that time I've found that the more I let go of dogmatic and prescribed thinking, the more readily I see signs of God's passing through every situation. The further I get from conformist, self-righteous belief systems, the more alien they appear. I am in contact with many SBNR advocates, and often they are just as dogmatic as many Christians.

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08/29/2012 17:25

It's been a long time since I've been part of a church. Reading your invitation to return makes me think that I maybe I might want to return. May peace be with you as you return to your congregation.

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seniorcit
08/29/2012 19:44

I'm into an almost 4 year sabbatical from church. I'm pushing 70, a long time widow, and I had been actively involved in church from age 13. Bible studies, small groups, Sunday School teacher, Children's Church leader, pianist, organist, choir member, deacon, treasurer--I'd done it all for over 50 years. And why? My theology changed at about age 50 and I left a fundamentalist Baptist church for a mainline denomination. I loved the liturgical worship and the music, but it began to feel empty and forced after a few years. My last experience with church was as a social club that went through Sunday morning rituals and if you were a member of the old guard clique, so much the better. The community I sought as an older, single woman with some chronic health issues wasn't there and I lack the initiative to try again someplace new. Presently I stay home, read a bit, think a lot and am happy with this phase of my life.

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08/29/2012 21:28

I will miss you.

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Eileen Graham Tschopp
08/30/2012 02:50

Dear new friend, I just found you somehow this evening. I found your words very familiar, perhaps I've thought them myself? I pray you have a gentle re-entry and will be looking forward to further reading. Sincerely, Eileen

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Stehen Powers0Hill
08/30/2012 08:47

I have enjoyed reading your blogs on Huffington Press. I enjoyed you latest installment. I hope your going back to church works for you in helping to reivent the little church and possibly the big church. I'm not sure where I'm standing on my return to the little church. I have been feeling somewhat disenfranchised for some time, I think because of the "we never did it that way before" stance. But I'm going to give it a try. As you pray for your congregation, please extend prayers for me. I can always use them.

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10/11/2012 18:22

Hi Mark,

"Probably the most beneficial piece of my sabbatical away from Church was the input of Spiritual But Not Religious (SBNR)"

Here is an interesting view you might not have seen before. Best wishes to you and your family as you explore and learn and grow.

I classify myself as a Grateful Deist; nevertheless, several of my web atheist friends have responded quite positively to this article. I wrote it a few months ago. It is copyrighted and is located in the book Musings of a Modern Augustine by August Stine (pen name), but you are welcome to use it (or not) without restrictions. It is basically a niche book for people who are more "Ah Theist." I am 77 years old and don't care if the book is mentioned. It is one of my "bucket list" things. My real name in Gerald Steen but I do not want you to publish my real name with this article. I am not sure you can use this article, but folks say it does ask the right questions.

My Son Thinks I Am Going to Hell!

In spite of the fact I am a former fundamentalist Christian and ex-pastor, my minister son and his family think I am headed for Hell. This is my response to him. I use the pen name of August Stine to protect my son.

Different Family Beliefs

Your faith is important to you.

My beliefs are important to me.

We pray to the same God every day

For me, He is the Caring Creator;

Who cares about my well being

To you, He is the fearful God

Who demands obedience.



I believe Jesus was a spiritual man but not God.

I believe Jesus said some great words of wisdom

And I am sorry he had to die on the cross.

You believe Jesus died for the sins of man

And his salvation is a gift from God.

I do not believe this, but let’s suppose I did.

Didn’t you say salvation was a gift?

If it is a gift, why do I need to do anything?



You say I am going to hell unless . . .

You even give me the words I should say--

“Jesus, forgive my sins.”

Do people go to hell for not saying these words?

What if I wait until just before dying and then ask?

What if I meant to ask Him for years but didn’t?

You say “Too late—you missed your chance!”

This is God we are talking about isn’t it?

Is God limited by time or death?



On the other hand, if salvation is a “gift,”

Do I really need to ask Him for forgiveness?

The Bible says God freely gives this gift.

Where did all these attached strings come from?

Why conditions on God’s unconditional love?



New converts are told their Christian duties.

Tithing is one—not too bad—it is do-able

Unless you are unemployed or on minimum wage.

But the heaviest of all these burdens is . . .

People go to hell unless we show them Jesus.

So their salvation is in our hands . . .

I thought salvation was a gift.



Why is this huge ugly rope attached to this gift?

Am I responsible for my neighbor’s salvation?

Why am I involved with another man’s salvation?

Why does God need Me?

Suppose I want to play golf on a nice day,

But my neighbor dies and goes to hell . . .

And it is my fault . . .

Because I did not tell him about Jesus.

Please don’t tell me

God is so awful and demanding.

Why am I involved in someone's eternal choice?

I thought God loved me and my neighbor.



Because of His heavy guilt trip,

I can’t even play golf without God on my back

I cannot believe God dearly loves me . . .

But loads me down with guilt trips

About darn near everything I do.

If I truly am a child of God,

Why do I have to be afraid of Him?

Why can’t I enjoy God

And let Him fix the world?

I thought that was His job.

Scripture says God is with us always;

If so, “Come on God, let’s go play some golf.”




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